Updates on me and my kitty!
Friday 20th November, 2009 - 11:42pm
To get straight to the point of this blog, I’m going to first update on everything that’s been going on. First of all, my medicine. If you follow me on Twitter, you’ll know that I was put on another medicine yesterday. Zoloft. It’s supposed to be all good and whatnot, but I was so scared to take it and so tired of taking anything in general. But needless to say, I had a doctor’s appointment yesterday and he changed my medicine again. So therefore, I was on Paxil for like 2 months, then I switched to Celexa the 5th, then to Doxepin the 10th, then to Zoloft yesteday – 19th. And I wonder why I feel so sick right? The 5th-19th are all this month. Ridiculous. So I took the Zoloft last night around 11:15 and I woke up around 2. Donnie was still up thank god and I told him to hurry and get me a cold wash cloth. I was shaking. Like.. uncontrollably shaking. I was so scared it was going to turn into a seizure. I sent my mom a text and then let her know after I’d calmed down. Needless to say, we are both highly pissed off (and you know I am because I keep these blogs pg-13 :]) I’ve decided to get a re-fill on the Doxepin (since I had a 14 day supply) and I’m going to ween myself off of everything. My body never feels good anymore from all this and I’m DONE with him. He just seems to associate EVERYTHING with my anxiety (that’s next!) and just puts me on anything to get me satisfied. Well, I’m not.
Yeah, that’s my belly from around.. eh.. an hour ago? You’ve also seen me talk about this on Twitter. The doctor did a pregnany test that came out negative and after me telling him over and over that it wasn’t normal (I showed him a picture a little smaller than this) he checked by pushing on my belly and was like oh oh. YEAH NO SHIT! So I have an ultrasound on Friday, the 27th at 2pm and we’ll go from there. The ultrasound paper says ‘pelvic mass’ as the description. Since he’s a you-know-what he didn’t say anything, but my from other guesses I’m either pregnant (seems like the safest answer right now – it is still possible at this point), I’m having a tubal pregnancy, I may have a cyst. OR my grandma and aunt both had endometrosis and had to get surgery because it turned into cancer if you don’t. I hope it’s not that because that means donnie and I won’t be able to have kids. And I really don’t want to have surgery so pray it’s nothing big. Please. Really. I’m not looking for pity, but I do need some people standing by and praying it’s nothing bad or painful or anything like that.
But besides that, I’ll leave you with some good news. Look how big Chloe’s belly is getting!
I started calculating about how far she is by when her nipples started to get larger. So I’m guessing she’s around 5 weeks this week. We’ll definitely have babies right before Christmas bouncy!
Ugh. That doctor sounds like he’s completely useless. The way he changes your medicines so quickly and in such a short period of time… it’s as if he’s so incompetent that he can’t even decide or think of what to give you that will actually help! Maybe you should try looking for another and more experienced one. A specialist maybe?
I do hope it’s nothing serious though. Don’t worry, I shall pray for you! I’m sure we’ll be answered :) Have no fear!
Also, yay for kittens! They are absolutely adorable and I wish I had one here with me now. It’s just a bit unfortunate my brothers are more of dog lovers :x
Haha no, you aren’t! I absolutely adore my friends online. They are so sweet. :’)
Ugh, please let’s swap weathers! I don’t like the heat in Australia. It’s a real scorcher.
Thank you! :3
Haha yeah. I don’t usually like kids or children sometimes, but working ‘behind the scenes’ and making things for them to enjoy is all good. :)
Holy shit. I hope you’re alright now. That must have been scary to feel that way. That’s really serious though. You should not be put on so many pills. It seriously is worrying the more I hear about it from you! :(
Your belly doesn’t look normal – at least, it’s not looking like just fat or a water belly. To me it looks like you’re pregnant from the picture. I really hope it’s just that! Have you just been feeling a bit sick lately? I really hope it’s nothing serious and nothing like what your poor grandma and aunt went through. Let’s just hope you have a little one safely growing inside you.
Oooh you’re gonna be having kitties as a little Christmas present, it looks like! :3
I hope nothing bad happens to you, im 7 months pregnant, what i only hate now is my aching ribs, and i cant do anything about it, i wonder why..
that’s great! your cat’s pregnant!
Hey. :) Hm, from what I’ve seen on your Twitter, your doctor keeps changing your medicine and it does seem like he associates everything with your anxiety. :/ But about your possible pregnancy, I really hope that it’s a safe pregnancy and that it is nothing serious. I will be praying for you! I hope it all turns out okay. :)
Why the hell does he change it so often? I mean, it takes a while to get into your system and start working and everything. Your doctors a complete douchebag if you ask me. OMG, you woke up shaking? That must have been scary. That’s a good idea to ween yourself off of everything, your body’s been through enough. :|
Wow I can’t believe your stomach is that big and you aren’t pregnant!!! I really hope it’s not endometrosis, my neighbours mum has that and she’s always in SO much pain with it because even though they operated, it spread to her bowel. :( It does look like a “preggers belly” though lol! Hope it’s nothing too serious.
Aww your cats so cute!
Yes please! I have boots I still want to wear in winter, and scarves!
That’s good – a psychologist is definitely someone you can trust more with your anxiety problems. :) A she would be a better option because I’m sure she would be a little more understanding. :)
You’re welcome! I had a cousin who had a huge cyst near her ovary and had it removed. I don’t know what the consequences were but it was a bit scary. The ultrasound will let you know for sure if it’s a little one or not. *crosses fingers*
Hey your cats so cute :) Do you wanna be afiies? Michael
Argh, I feel so bad for you Stephine! I don’t understand why he keep changing your medicine, maybe instead of switching medicine you should switch DOCTORS! He doesn’t really seem like he knows what he is talking about! I’m going to pray that you will find a medicine that works and gives you no problems, I’m sure that medicine is out there, maybe you just need the right doctor to help you find it.
Wow, I don’t think that your just getting fat, I don’t think you could of gained all that weight in such a short time, it couldn’t be that because like you say on twitter sometimes that you were skinny before and I think you would realize if it were food doing it to you. I hope that the ultrasound goes okay and if you are pregnant then it’s a safe healthy pregnancy. <3
Have a great day.
1) Well since I started talking to you, I know you and your family struggle to keep up with things sometimes, so I completely understand your situation. I don’t think you’re one of the freeloaders of this country.
Ugh Steph you wouldn’t believe the mind-numbingly stupid idiots that came through my line tonight. They were fully grown adult males but were completely deadbeat LOSERS ..of course using Food Stamps. They were using foul language the entire time and being perverts to me. They didn’t even know how to use a pinpad !
It’s losers like them that infuriate me because they’re the kind of people who don’t care to even search for a job. They’d rather “just get by” with what the government continually gives them. And you know what they were talking about ? Buying beer after they leave the store. YUP. I wanted to strangle them.
2) I hope you’re not pregnant if you’re still living in a madhouse! I want my little Stephine to have a comfortable pregnancy. Even though I’m hoping you’re not pregnant, I’m also hoping there’s nothing seriously wrong. All those options you listed all seem so grim. Whatever happens, I hope for the best and that everything will be alright. Let me know if you want me to send a care package for Christmas or something (;
3) Wow, I bet your cat just lies there all day and hates that she’s a female cat, lol. What horny little man-cat got her pregnant ? Water you gonna do with the kittens ?
OMG, I hope for the sake of you it’s not cancer! And that it’s just a pregnancy thing. Thank good
s there’s some pictures to show to your doctor huh? Anyway, congrats on the babies coming right before christmas. Heehee. I love kittens, they’re so adorable. We might have puppies as well. Our male dog has been after our newest female dog for quite some time now and well; let’s just say he did the naughty with her and got stuck. Lol. Anyway, let us know how the ultrasound turns out!